You and i both

Was it you who spoke the words
That things would happen but not to me
Oh things are gonna happen naturally
Oh taking your advice i'm looking on the bright side
And balancing the whole thing
But often times those words get tangled up in lines
And the bright lights turn to night
Until the dawn it brings
Another day to sing about the magic that was you and me

Cause you and i both loved
What you and i spoke of
And others just read of
Others only read of the love, the love that i love.

See i'm all about them words
Over numbers unencumbered numbered words
Hundreds of pages pages pages forwards
More words then i had ever heard and i feel so alive

You and i you and i
Not so little you and i anymore
And with this silence brings a moral story
More importantly evolving is the glory of a boy

Cause you and i both loved
What you and i spoke of
And others just dream of
And if you could see me now
Well i'm almost finally out of
I'm finally out of
Finally deedeedeedee
Well i'm almost finally, finally
Well i'm free

And it's okay if you have go away
Oh just remember the telephone works both ways
And if i never ever hear them ring
If nothing else i'll think the bells inside
Have finally found you someone else and that's okay
Cause i'll remember everything you sang

Cause you and i both loved what you and i spoke of
and others just read of and if you could see now
well i'm almost finally out of
i'm finally out of, finally
well i'm almost finally finally finally out of words

Stunned

Temperature : 28 degrees

Mood : In a daze

Feeling : Dumbfounded

Location : La la land

Tuning in to : Hey love by jason mraz

Last resort

This is my second time attempting to blog as i did a crappy job trying to blog a poem thinking that it's effortless during the afternoon. I just came home after having dinner with leah. She is really an encouragement towards me not because she is taking her o level maths with me at her age but it's more of the accompany i have from her other than those who are actually younger than me. Sometimes i really think it's a disgrace that i'm still stuck in a secondary school getting really demoralized. I need to get out of this sucky school. It's so miserable till it's beyond my paitence. I use to feel alright everytime i go to school last year eventhough i wasn't as hardworking as i was suppose to be. There were lots of entertainment from people around and life was just great. All i had to pass was 3 subjects to make it up. Everything has changed ever since this year. Just thinking of where i'm heading to after this year makes me sick. Entering jc is fat hope. Poly won't take me in without my maths and i'm reluctant to go into ite. Do i really have to go to adelaide in the end? I'm not so sure yet but i guess that's the only way out. My biggest dilemma is between parting from my mum and friends, and going over there to make my life useful when i come back. These 2 choices seem equally favorable and mutually exclusive. Is this my last resort?

One tree hill

I don't wanna be

I don't need to be anything other
Than a prison guard's son
I don't need to be anything other
Than a specialist's son
I don't have to be anything other
Than the birth of two souls in one
Part of where i'm going, is knowing where i'm coming from

I don't want to be
Anything other than what i've been trying to be lately
All i have to do
Is think of me and i have peace of mind
I'm tired of looking round rooms
Wondering what i've got to do
Or who i'm supposed to be
I don't want to be anything other than me

I'm surrounded by liars everywhere i turn
I'm surrounded by imposters everywhere i turn
I'm surrounded by identity crisis everywhere i turn
Am i the only one who noticed
I can't be the only one who's learned

I don't want to be
Anything other than what i've been trying to be lately
All i have to do
Is think of me and i have peace of mind
I'm tired of looking round rooms
Wondering what i've got to do
Or who i'm supposed to be
I don't want to be anything other than me

Can i have everyone's attention please
If you're not like this and that, you're gonna have to leave
I came from the mountain
The crust of creation
My whole situtaion-made from clay to stone
And now i'm telling everybody

Last but not least

This will be the last time ever for me to mention lum yuhui's name on my blog as the thought of her sickens me. So much for her immodesty in dress and the crass comments. The reason why she got so agitated was simply because she looked ugly in that picture and every single word i mentioned just shot right into her in a bang. But at least i'm proud of myself to stick to the saying, this is my blog i can write anything i want to because i built it up. And i'm even more than happy that at least i understood what i believed and did not pay back to tay shuting's black blog. It's her blog, she has her rights. Blog is similar to a diary. Just that i'm typing it on the net and simultaneously this is called blogging. If you don't like it don't even set foot. Coming in to 'read' what i type is just being a sadist. Those contradicting comments from her made me wanna puke. Thats why i say i abhor this kind of people. The right word to use on her is b*mbo. Don't worry that's not a vulgar word and by censoring part of the word makes me more civilized ya? Right! Upon receiving peifang's email, i was nervous yet relieved on the other hand. Now, it's really up to peifang as i'm so over that two chap and i'm ready for the start. I came home with jan today thinking of catching a movie but ended up chatting and downloading shows, my headache still not yet recovered from yesterday's 2 hours maths tution. Anything but maths and science. Big no no for those two subjects. The only reason why i'll flunk my o's ever will be because of maths and science. Currently, i'm watching one tree hill. Something like the oc but still not totally sure yet. I heard from wini that the whole of ajc is watching and talking about it. Wow! I didn't knew that that drama was in popular demand. Alright i shall stop and watch and tomorrow awaits for me. Haha.

Just read

From: "Daphany Goh"
To: onlyjoyis@hotmail.com
Subject: just read
Date: Sat, 25 Mar 2006 15:33:57 +0800

just to say. i want to try again. i feel that i'm letting myself down if i just give up ths friendship that doesnt come by chance like that... but i'm not sure what are your views... maybe you're too sick to continue... i want to strike a balance.. i want to see your point. if you're willing to try this one last time with me again. if things still don't work out, we shall really part our ways. i don't know what's in your mind but i would realy like to hear from you.this time i promise you is that i'll really strike up a balance. i'm feeling as miserable as you too. something just went very wrong between us.. can we just bury all our hatches and start anew? and i really do mean anew. i want to be your pei fang again and i want you to be my joy again. we shall stop all these ok? i'll strike up a balance, i mean i really will.

Chortle of joy

A huge suprise when i clicked into wakako's blog through her comments. I finally understood. Understood why did she gave her 100% to lum yuhui. I shall not post up her picture incase of some big hoo-ha. But when my friend saw her, it gave her a real haha. Oh well, a letter of motivation coming up soon that i was overjoyed upon receiving! Email to be exact. I came back from china more than half a year ago. But i can still remember how the air felt and the distinguished smell of toliets without doors. The feeling was magnificent and i shall blog on it soon.

???

I've reached home from acid bar smelling like a chimney, mind in a blank. I'm stoping by brain from thinking for a while and acid bar can wait. Woo, those comments from lum yuhui are such a disgrace. But whoever you are ( anonymous ), thanks for your motivation. Keyboard classes i will not attend, qt i will not do. Sleeping and just stoning is all i will do on a saturday morning. I've lost someone, someone for good??? To think of what is happening to my hand, this afternoon and night's thingy has added on to the problemo.

Malu

Boo-boo you

Once again, i would like to clarify that this blog belongs to joy chang. I think i need to elucidate some people what does it means by i have my rights to write anything i want in my blog ( the truth at least ). Anger isn't in me but bashfulness is stucked with you. You are such a boo-boo.

The striving spirits of our sportsmanship

My flight essay

As i ponder on the word flight, it really makes me wonder how on earth did we ever learn to fly like birds. Base on my knowledge, the early efforts of flight began with kites. The discovery that kites could fly in the air was discovered by the chinese. It therefore started humans thinking about flying and i believe kites have been crucial to the invention of flight. I personally believe that the fact for human to be able to fly in the air is no big deal in the 21th century. But it must have been hardwork for those pioneers who had slowly discovered how to even lift from the ground. Not to mention fly. I can also guarantee that many must have lost their precious lives while inventing and trying out their new devices to fly. For many centuries, humans have tried to fly just like birds initially because of curiosity. Wings were made from feathers of light-weight wood and were attached to their arms to test their ability to fly. I doubt they succeeded. The results must have been disastrous during that time. After so many years of hardwork and determination, humankind is now able to fly as freely as a bird to anywhere in this world via airplanes. However, planes that are built nowadays are not out of curiosity anymore but more for the transport for people, luggage, cargo, military men etc. I am very amazed by the history of flight on how people actually started from scratch. And because of all these people, i am truly inspired to be an air stewardess when i grow up. I would like to enjoy and experience the world with my own eyes through the 21th century's advances on flight ( that's added on to make the essay have more 'kick' ). I think the greatest contribution on this world is the fact that we are able to to fly.

Harley davidson

To anticipate with sports day

I was feeling a little crappy in school today after going for my chinese lesson. It started off the mood from feeling downcast after having rheumatism for 4 days. But i guess what was more worthwhile was the trip down to taka for lunch cum dinner with peifang. It was donkey years ago ever since we both went out together. I bet even she can't recall. Occasionally, i really feel that we should refresh our memories with a certain someone that is dear to us. When she was laughing at the trailer of date movie, people thought that she was a lunatic. Yep, that's my friend. But on the other hand, it reminded me ever since i was 12, i've inserted myself into every movie i've seen and gratefully, humbly found succor there. Haha. Thinking about sports day tomorrow makes me feel like swooning. Not that it's going to be a fantastic day at the staduim lah! You can't imagine how excited some teachers really are. To me, it's such a dread. Although we'll be let off 2 hours earlier than our normal school days, i can already predict how the sun is gonna suck up our nutrients and how the heat is gonna pierce through our skin ( more for those runners i guess ). Haha.

Region of dumb dumbs

Super short

I want to blog wittingly, but there's nothing much to blog about. Is this a tell tale sign of being no life? If you were to look at how my life is being lived, you'll see the selfsame business going on. It's like a deja vu or something. Haha. My rheumatism can't carry on like this. I'm gonna die from it sooner or later as long as the rain keeps on dripping. It also gives people a clammy feeling. Oh God, i can't bear the pain anylonger. =S

Proud left-handers eating

Jap wannabees = losers

I really don't have the heart to blog today with the pimple right in the middle of my nose. Interesting spot, but not today please! However, i insist on blogging because i want to. Dear people, what's so great about japs? They are just a bunch of act cutes who look up to angmohs just because they can speak english. So can we alright! I really abhor those people who look up to japs and make them fly high to the sky. They will try super duperly hard to dress like them, learn their language to be able to speak with them but it turns out that they can only practice among themselves because they don't have practical lifes with japanese and only when they go to japan for holiday. I really hope those jap wannabees would stop making up as if they are them trying to fake those passerbys who walk pass them. Deep down in your heart you should know that we are not stupid to think that you are a jap. Infact, most of the time you are being criticised for your dressing rather than being admired. Why become a laughing stock walking around under the hot sun right people? Get a life. You're just a singaporean who imitates the behavior, customs, or dress of an admired person or group. You are so not you and a big loser! For good measure but no good reason, let me throw in the word eyeliner. Japs live on eyeliner. They will die without it as they seem to be eyeless without makeup. Jap wannabees tries doubly hard but it's either they look like they have a piece of shit of their eye or they look like they just got punched seconds ago. However, there are people who drew it pretty well. Two thumbs up! The funniest thing is i myself almost went into this trap. But thank God, i'm like sooo out of it already. Liking them is fine. But don't go overboard and try to be them. You are a singaporean afterall so be like one. Same goes to those who hates china and being a chinese. You are a chinese afterall. Too bad and no biggie deal about it.

More than words

Lost retainer found

Yesterday's meet up was very successful. The reason why i'm using this word is because i was dead worried before we met up. Not that they wouldn't come but it was more of how are we gonna react when we see each other after being so distant. But it turned out that i was worrying too much. Everything just seemed to flow and all turned out great. I can proudly say that we are a group of happening people. As i woke up upon the noise that my mother some how manage to create ( nagging ), i was really thankful to her eventhough she woke me up from my beauty sleep. She found my retainer and that's the utmost importance of any other things at this moment. Now that i can save my $157.50, i bet it's my mum who is the happiest. The way she finds it i can't explain. It's like magic. A mysterious quality of enchantment. Haha. She stepped into my room, went behind my door and searched within my orange net and tadaaa! What can i say? She is my mother! I felt so guilt-ridden i didn't want to face her because i reminded her the night before to search through the rubbish bin for my retainer before throwing it. I wouldn't feel so heavyhearted if the thing was in it. But it wasn't in there and my mum had to bare with her stinky finger to work for the whole day before the smell can fade away. Ultimately, things are going on as usual already. =)

Beach party

Burning hot

Have you ever seen a burning charcoal walking around? Maybe if you'd see me, i'm your best answer you're looking for. I was overexposed to direct sunlight while riding the bike for god knows how long and now i'm affected with sunburn. Right now at this moment, i'm still burning hot. It's kind of cool in a way because i have some werid looking tanns. But i had enough of getting any darker. Yesterday's outting was great although i felt like sleeping after we had our breakfast once we reached there. I think it was more of a eating event rather than a beach outting. I ate 5 meals in all. As usual, thomas was more than happy to burp around. Although that wasn't an attractive trick to burp at everyone but we finally found out that his burps were meant to be greetings. So if he ever does that to you, say nice to meet you or hello. Shunbin refused to go home so early, therefore i was pulled along to catch a movie with him. That's it, i met iguana, yansoon, mummy if i'm not wrong and two other girls. Who knows what's gonna spread when school reopens. This time, i refused to watch munich with him. Something to do with germany and isreal. I seriously had no interest in that show eventhough i'm a history student. We watched date movie instead. If you haven't seen it, it's a must watch! I've watched tons of comedies that made me laugh. But date movie made me laugh my heart out and i strongly encourage you guys to watch it before it ends. When i reached home, i was too tired to even look for my lost retainer which will cost me $157.50 to replace a new one. Although i know my mum's gonna kill me for that, but i have no choice but to let her know. All i could do was to meditate on it and fell asleep. Haha. Later tonight, i'll be meeting up with the other 3 siao kias for dinner at pepper lunch and some fun. Lets see what weird things gonna happen when we come together.

Siao kias at work

Foursome

Like i promised zoey, i will post something up about the four 'siao kias' which stupidly, i'm also involved. I figured out that i wouldn't have ample time to blog after i 'sail' back home from the beach. Hence, i'm staying up working through the small hours. Furthermore, i'm kind of bored too. I came home early thinking that i had loads of stuff to finish packing after the zouk night but realised that it was just an illusion. Haha. My things were way too neat to be packed. As i was admiring those 4 pictures joined up together on top, i was filled with astonishment. I suddenly realised that we've known each other for 9 years. One more year and it will add up to a decade. Although chari joined only 4 years ago, so what! The memories of all the things we did and went through just gushed through my mind even faster the more i looked at the neoprints we took together. You can really see the changes in us from head to toe. We seriously looked terrible few years ago. Ugly is word. But we look nice and dice now. Haha, no such phrase actually. Although each of us have our own lifes, but nothing can stop us from sticking together when sunday comes and i believe that these are the friends that will grow old with me. They too, will become my bride's maid when i get married and i'll be theirs when it's their turn. You can seldom find a bunch of friends who weigh almost the same ( excluding wini ) and are almost of the same height ( including wini ). We tried really hard for about an hour thinking of a name to represent us. However our brains didn't think hard enough and i don't even wish to mention those names that we came up with. Therefore, here is the top trivia tips about chari, joy, zoey and wini.


Chari : Chari was invented in china in the eleventh century, but was only used for fireworks, never for weapons!
Joy : Two grams of joy provide enough energy to power a television for over twenty-three hours!
Zoey : Long ago, the people of nicaragua believed that if they threw zoey into a volcano it would stop erupting!
Wini : Wini will become gaseous if her temperature rises above -42°C!

Whole lot of pics